In this 4 part series, Tom opens up his heart helping us into a more loving relationship with God.

Tom Brock

When Suzie and I were first married and I would buy her gifts for her birthday or Christmas, the conversation would sound something like this. "Oh how nice, thank you so much, do you have the receipt?" Now that I know her better that very seldom happens. I have also learned what she likes; I know what makes her happy. We have learned to be lovers over the years.

A lot is made over the "honey moon" period, and even comments are said like "well the honey moon is over". Well I'm not sure that the honey moon is all that it is cracked up to be. You're nervous, you're self conscious, you're really not sure how to take care of anything. You say to each other: 'what do you what to do?' 'I don't know, what do you want to do?' 'Do you want to eat?' 'If you do.' 'Do you want to go out?' 'If you do.' Both of you are feeling the stress of not knowing each other well enough yet. You're afraid to say what you really want, {let's go back to the room!}. But when you know each other then you can relax with each other. You can find your way to intimacy without feeling awkward. This is how it is with the Lord; He really wants the relationship to grow. He loves us so much and He wants to bring us to a place of freedom so that we can learn to be in His embrace.

There is something about being with the one you love, and to feel the warmth of each others touch. We need to understand that this is the desire of the Lord. Come away with me my beloved; come into the chamber where I share with you things that only lovers share. Hear His heart. He wants to cover us with the kisses of His mouth. He wants to whisper things to us that will bring us comfort and excite us towards life. He wants us to find Him and not let go.

Sometimes I think we miss the point about His plan for us. We are always looking for our destiny, wondering 'what is my ministry?' 'What is the next step for me?' But in truth He wants to build our hearts to His. He wants us to bear life. He wants the life to come from him. It is what Paul says: "when I speak of marriage I speak of Christ and His church". When you get married and you have a healthy relationship, if all things are normal you will have babies. The Lord wants His church to have babies and he want the children to look like Him. This can only come by us abandoning ourselves to him and giving our whole selves. I want more of him so I will go after him. I will invest myself into the relationship and learn more of him. I want the increase in the relationship. And I come to understand this: he already loves me all that he is going to. It is not His love that has to grow, it is mine. So I will pursue him.

For years I tried to seve the lord by doing things for Him. I committed my life to "share the good news". Through all the things we did, church planting, youth work, conferences, television, radio and much more I wanted to show him how much I was worth. I wanted to bring him so much. I wanted Him to see how much I was worth.

Then one day something happened and everything was stripped away. I had nothing to give him, and there I was, naked and uncovered. That's when He came. I felt his embrace and I heard Him say "This is all I have ever really wanted from you. I just want you. Not what you bring, just your heart; not what you have done, I just want you." Then I began to see that in all the things that I was doing to "build the Kingdom", I was only trying to show myself worthy and that I had value to him. I had heard that he loved me and it wasn't by works, but who really believes that? But there I was, and He kissed me. I felt his touch and he began to heal my heart of the insecurity that had driven me for so long. As I was on the floor he spoke to me about his love and acceptance and shared with me secret things. I was released from a prison and I had found the one my heart loved. I made a decision then, that I would not let go of him ever, because life was different now that I had kissed the Son.

Everyone is invited into the inner camber; we just have to decide if we want to come. Will we surrender to His touch? Will we be willing lovers, will we give ourselves? Here is something you might think about. Can you go somewhere where you can stand alone with the Lord? Can you strip off the stuff you have clothed yourself with that you have put on to show him your worth? Would you dare to stand naked before him and say here I am Lord for better or for worse? I want you, I need you, take me here I am! Not what I have done, not my money, my education, not my status, just me. With all my faults and fears here I am.

You will be amazed at his response, he will take you away and he will speak to you like never before. You will find him whispering things to you that only lovers share. You will find his forgiveness, his acceptance and you will find Him. He will kiss you and you will never be the same. Take a chance, give yourself the opportunity to move into the relationship you were created for. Seek him and you will find him. Touch him and never let go. Find the one your heart loves and you will find the peace you long for.